AWESOMEYvonne

I don’t know how I got here. I was sure when I arrived at this point, I would be this parent that is so seasoned, I would know how to handle all situations and what to say and do at every turn.

Well, spoiler .. I have no idea! That goes for everything in life, not just parenting and I honestly think that might be the secret. I had myself convinced the only way to be a good person/parent/employee/friend was to know what to say and do in every moment. I think the exact opposite of that now.

I know that I am caring and empathetic and kind and at the same time a force to be reckoned with and bold and strong and a survivor. They way I got here was just by being myself. Being the most authentic version of myself I can be. And that is how I am taking it all on going forward.

So my baby turned 10 and I have spent the day just being here with her. We went to the grocery store together, made a cake thing together, went to the park with her friends when they got out of school, made dinner, and I have been here all day and that is what she wanted.

Previously I would worry before and after if it was “enough.” If we did enough, got enough presents, etc. Today I know that I was enough and I am not going to question it anymore.

Be messy and loving and human. Much love and peace.